I feel so artsy for this title, so I hope you enjoy it. the idea of this post is the reflections that come to you as life slows down a bit. Although the metaphor may be a bit incorrect based on the fact that so much can happen under the surface as the currents recede.
The past few months have been action packed for me. I’m settling into the routine of my stateside Life, trying my best to prioritize mental health in all facets of life, working to develop friendships while also working full time.
My Daily/weekly life is pretty repetitive so I don’t feel the need to update often but I’ve had some notable moments. Most recently, i went to a chappell roan concert. It had been a few months since I’d been to a concert but even so, this was one of the best concerts I’ve ever been to. I think it really helped that the crowd felt to safe to be in, while also bringing high energy. another (BIG) update is that I’m now a licensed motorcycle owner. I don’t ride as much as I should but I enjoy having it. (I’m realizing ow long its been since I posted because that happened in January lol) I reconnected with a friend from High school and went to Charleston to visit Him. got a hair cut that added layers and face-framing features to my hair (That was big!!) got some new tattoos. found a new place to live. and saw my first live ballet performance.
I haven’t touched much on the reflections that have come to me but there have def been a lot. A common thought I have while writing posts is that I don’t want to trauma dump so I will just graze over the big topics. First, there is nothing selfish in protecting my peace. since going away to college, this has been an idea I’ve had to get used to but as time has passed, the importance of this has been made more obvious. Another, that I hate to admit, is how much I value other people’s company. I can manage just fine on my own but I am so much happier when I surround myself with people who make me feel welcome/secure. This reinforces protecting my peace because I will not let myself hang out with people who make me doubt my worth and if they even want My presence. I try my best to give myself many different things that can provide a refuge (music, my art wall, journaling, etc.) Life as an adult is not what I always assumed it would be (literally, high school me would struggle to wrap her head around my anxiety as an adult) but I try my best to enjoy the path of growth that I’m on.
thanks for reading, hopefully this all is cohesive (I don’t reread any of these posts before posting haha) I’ll be back again soon because I’m going on vacation at the end of next week!
Tash the Traveler 